| Location | Twickenham, Middlesex |
| Age | 8 days |
| Cause of Death | Not Listed? |
| Date of Birth | 23/11/2008 |
| Date of Death | 01/12/2008 |
| Visitors | 1,978 since 31/12/2008 |
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Louie came into our lives on Sunday the 23rd November 2008, although not due until January 2009 he
wanted an introduction that would make us all proud, stand up and take notice. Two month premature
he arrived at Kingston Hospital at 3.50am, to everybody’s surprise within 4 hours he was breathing
on his own in an incubator in the Neo Natal unit at the hospital. He was under the watchful eye of
the nurses and was improving nicely. We always knew he was a fighter from Day 1 when during the
early stages of the pregnancy problems arose which made it difficult for mum and dad but little
Louie kept them believing through the good times and the bad. The signs were good Louie was steadily
improving touching lives and making friends along the way. But on Sunday the 31st of November 2008
Little Louie was diagnosed with and infection that affects Pre term Babies call Necrotizing
Entroconitis. This infection targets the digestive system and makes it difficult for babies so small
to survive, He was rushed to St Georges Hospital where he received surgery to try to save him but
the disease was to strong for his little body, but not His Heart. Sadly Louie passed over the
following day in His mum and dads arms. What Louie has bought in his short life to so many people is
proof he is a little Miracle whom touched so many lives and will never be forgotten
Hi Louie
Its nearly your birthday and the emotions that me and your mum are feeling are of Happyness and Sadness, the day you came into our lives bought us so so much joy, it will be extremly difficalt to wake up on monday without you here to celebrate your 1st birthday.
i know you will be looking down and blowing out your candles on monday, we love you and miss you more each day, more than ever.
Love
Daddy x x
Hi Louie,
I was thinking about the first time i sore you today, i remember your tiny little dummy and you were sleeping so peacefully and i remember the song that was playing. It is mine and uncle Joes song Take That Rule the world. You rode on a star and now you light the heavens so one day we will find our way to you.
Love you so much louie.
Love Claire
Our Little Louie
Louie xx
it is 6 months today since you were taken away from us , and the pain is still raw for all of us , we miss you and still cant understand why it was you son. me and your mum have been thinking alot about it all so much lately , your still my little man and i miss you so so much. Ruby been drawing pictures and singing songs about you she misses you too.
Love you Louie & Miss you baby
lots of love Dad xx
louie x x
hay my beautiful little man. i miss you so much i can see you in ruby's and daddys eyes that is my only peace. i miss you evry day, i hope you are being good. i know you have ben visiting ruby in her sleep she keeps saying you are sleeping on her pillow to keep her safeand she woke up crying the other night saying that you said you love her and missed her. please keep her safe, she misses you so much we all do x x xmummy x x x
Hi Louie,
I wish i could of had a dance with you at my 21st. It was an amazing night, your mummy and daddy looked great and your sister was a beautiful princess, your family is very beautiful be proud of there strength and the pure love they share. Be proud of your sister she loves you dearly and misses you every day.
I love you so much,
love your auntie claire
Hi Louie
well we did it, raised all that money and all because you gave me & the others the determination, i miss you so so much and wish i could have done all this for another cause, give me the strength over the next few weeks, months because i know im going to need it and so will your mum. we need to find something else to focus on now xx love daddy
A letter from Heaven
To my dearest family, some things I'd like to say.
But first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay.
I'm writing this from heaven. Here I dwell with God above.
Here, there's no more tears of sadness; Here is just eternal love.
Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight.
Remember that I am with you every morning, noon and night.
That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through.
God picked me up and hugged me and He said, "I welcome you."
"It's good to have you back again, you were missed while you were gone.
As for your dearest family, They'll be here later on.
I need you here so badly, you are part of my plan.
There is so much that we can do, to help our mortal man."
God gave me a list of things, that he wished for me to do.
And foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you.
And when you lie in bed at night the day's chores put to flight.
God and I are closest to you.... in the middle of the night.
When you think of my life on earth, and all those loving years.
Because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry; it does relieve the pain.
Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.
I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned.
If I were to tell you, you wouldn't understand.
But one thing is for certain, though my life on earth is over.
I'm closer to you now, than I ever was before.
There are rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb;
But together we can do it by taking one day at a time.
It was always my philosophy and I'd like it for you too;
That as you give unto the world, the world will give to you.
If you can help somebody who is in sorrow and pain;
Then you can say to God at night...."My day was not in vain.
And now I am contented... that my life was worthwhile.
Knowing as I passed along the way I made somebody smile."
So if you meet somebody who is sad and low;
Just lend a hand to pick them up, as on your way you go.
When you're walking down the street and you've got me on your mind;
I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind.
And when it's time for you to go.... from that body to be free.
Remember you're not going.... you're coming here with me
Hi Son
Lots of people are sponsoring us for your bike ride mate, you are the most special little boy, i miss you so so much both me and your mum,your uncles & Auntie have been training and i think it will be you that will push us through next weekend, lots love always, oh and thanks for sorting spurs out :-), love you boy , Daddy xxx
Imagine someone has opened your chest with clawed hands,
grabbed your heart in a crushing grip and torn it from your body.
But you do not die. You remain alive, in agony.
Agony that will continue for days,
weeks, months and years.
This is what it feels like when your child dies.
This is how I felt when my son louie died,
age 8 days.
To hold the limp body of my precious child in my arms
and feel its emptiness was pain that defies words.
I sat cradling my beautiful child, knowing that I
would never again see his face ,
I would never hear his laugh
or feel his hand clinging to my fingers.
I would never again hold his warm body close and
breathe in the scent of his hair. I would never
know the person he would have grown up to be.
I walked from the room knowing that I had seen
and held my child for the last time ever.
I wondered why I still lived,
and how I was supposed to keep going.
I wanted to die; I wasn't suicidal - it's just that
the only way to end my pain was death,
and I ached to hold him in my arms again.
Never again will I feel 'whole'.
My whole future is flavored by the loss of my son.
A part of me went with him,
and a gaping hole exists that his warm
presence once filled.
I asked questions that no one could answer;
Why did he die?
Why not me instead?
Death has struck close to me once -
what if it happens again?
What do I do now?
How will I manage?
Why am I still here?
I rode an emotional roller coaster.
One moment I felt I was managing well -
the next I was curled up in a corner
pleading with God to take me, right now.
I went for long periods where I did well and thought,
"Okay, I've accepted it."
Then out of the blue, it hit me anew -
"He's dead. God, he's really dead."
And I began a new round of grieving.
Gradually, you find that the lows
weren't quite as low as the previous ones,
and that I rose from them quicker.
Then just when I thought I was cruising on a level piece of track,
it dropped out from under me yet again.
I did this over and over and over,
but living with it gradually became easier,
and I even found that I could live a 'normal' life again,
although it was a new normality.
I will never forget louie.
He will live forever in my heart
and in my memories.
Death makes him no less a part of our family.
Living with the fact that my child has died
does not mean forgetting.
It means knowing and accepting that he is gone,
but still holding close those precious memories.
It means that my love for him does not change,
but that I don't allow my grief for his death
to over-rule my life forever.
It's about remembering that louie would not expect
nor want me to spend the rest of my life
in misery.
My new normality is not necessarily an unhappy one.
louies life and death is part of what makes me who I am.
It has had an immense impact on the way I look at life,
and although I wish he was still here,
I know that I have grown from my experience.
mummy x x
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